I decided to re-record, because there's construction happening next door, and it's rather loud, and sometimes they'll just have this saw that goes on for like a minute. Um, what was I talking about? I guess I'll try to just like repeat what I said before, but in a different way. So I'm sitting in the sun on to Cecile's balcony, and she's in Berlin right now. So I've been using her balcony in the mornings and evenings, and I think I prefer it over my balcony. Mine looks out on the street, and hers looks out on the backyard, and there's a school behind us, and you can probably hear the kids playing right now. Just a little while ago, they were all kind of congregated against the fence, and there's just the sound of breaking sticks. Um, well actually, at first I just thought it was fireworks, kind of has the same sound, and there's always fireworks going off somewhere in Rotterdam, but um, and then after a while, I saw one of the kids like, emerging to our neighbor's backyard, and he had just lost his ball, and he was like, got the ball, and then went back through the branches, so I realized it was just these branches breaking, and then when he got back to the playground, all the kids like celebrated, it's kind of cute. Now it's getting pretty windy, a lot of shouting and screaming, but yeah, it's weird to use my voice like in the morning because, I mean, yeah, I haven't like said anything until this call or this recording, so it's kind of like a voice, like wake up a little bit, and I really have to like, think about like, projecting, and like, how to say words. Um, warming up the vocal muscles I guess. Oh yeah, like, before I was talking about the bird in the back backyard, and I actually don't hear many of them now, but when I focus on it, you can really hear them. I also got this app, this like Merlin Bird ID app, it's pretty nice, and it like allows you to, um, identify different birds based on their call, and it has a cool interface that shows the bird call or like, when you're recording, it shows little histogram, I think that's what it's called, um, of the sounds, and it's beautiful to see like, this drawing of sound, and it's like, what the bird calls look like, anyway, I thought it would be, I was having breakfast, and then I was thinking about like, I was thinking a bit about like Caveh's work, and yeah, one of my favorite artists, he's a filmmaker, and I haven't watched his films in a long time, but, um, but a lot of his work is like, diaristic, and I think my intention with the memory site was to make more diaristic work in this year. So, but then I feel like it's kind of become like a blog, and so, I feel like I've maybe gone off track a little bit, and I'm like, trying to figure out how to bring it back to this like, personal, the personal isn't like the right word, it's like, personal is overused, but yeah, maybe like, diaristic is better word or like, what I just love about his movies is like, there's, he just kind of shows everything, and yeah, even the boring things, and he's really into this like, radical honesty, I guess, which can go both ways, and it can be rather hurtful, um, at times, or for the people in his films, which is also sad to see, but yeah, I don't, I don't know if I would, I don't want to hurt people through, through, my memory site, but, um, but I would like to be more like transparent maybe, and like, care, and like, and less, I don't know, sometimes things just feel like, there's a layer between who I actually am, and what I'm writing, or what I'm posting, so this is kind of an attempt at that I guess, although now I'm kind of like, also, um, it feels like I'm starting to get into like, interview mode, or something, um, there's a plane like, stretching across the sky, it's, uh, trail, and I've really been like, like, the last days, I was just kind of, I was a bit sad, and I was just, uh, doing a lot of just, I guess meditation, or just sitting with my feelings, and thinking a lot, and there's something like, it's strange, like when you're doing just nothing, and like, especially when you're not looking at a screen, it just feels like more productive to do nothing, you know, like, um, but when I'm looking at a screen, I'll come out of that, like, feeling exhausted, so it's like, but yeah, when I'm like, sitting on the balcony looking at the sky, or like, looking at the trees, and just watching the wind in the trees, like, it feels like, it's energizing or something, or I come out of it feeling like, pretty peaceful, I mean, I guess it makes sense, but, um, I guess when you're looking at a screen, you're, you're really not doing, you're doing a lot, it's not nothing, so that's the difference against, but anyway, this, um, but I started noticing how many planes are in the sky, like all the time, and at any time, there's like, at least three to five, I guess, like, right now, I see two, oh, no, three, there's three right now, maybe more, but, oh, four, there's four planes in the sky, and I guess we're close to the airport too, so, but it's just wild, and they make these drawings across the sky, which are quite beautiful, um, and when it's closer to sunset, like, the light will catch the trails, and then, like, it looks like a piece of paper with, like, little slits in it, and light is coming through it, or something, um,